i hate this part
little by little im slowly drifiting apart
bruised and cut my heart
yet i don't wanna give it up
its not over its not the end
i still wanna fight still wanna defend
for everything that i ever stand for
the cause and effect is killing me
misty and bleak
all that surround is weak
im like a kid who can only see feet
longing for candy
sweetness lingering
smiles brightening
peace of mind when i get that cake
furious anger and hate
shudder and shake
strainous tension that it might break
under pressure that it seems so fake
this issue of mine never seems to go
feels like my life is at stake

War

Ask me what do I see at the end of the tunnel
Darkness surrounds me
Static displays on tv even though I got the right channel
Graduated n educated
Got me thinking why did I even major
Look at what this shit has made ya
Feel like im designated for some other calling
God help me im at war within myself
The battle drags on there’s no clear winner
If this carries on im not even sure if there would be dinner
People used to say education feeds you
The only thing that feeds me is the will to survive
Found out the hard way that no matter how much I strive
To achieve I can never be able to get there if I drive
i’m job deprived

There’s a war in the streets tonight
And nobody’s really feeling alright
I got a blunt for my chronic
A juice for my tonic
I know now that im feeling right if this goes down
Cos my eyes sees the lowdown
Cos I now its not my time to go now
Cos god’s got my back in this showdown
I know it’ll be alright

No money all trouble
dreams high up in the air
dissipates like smoke through the air
reach my hands to grab bursting it like bubbles
problems on end solutions never come
others having fun seems like I’m always on the run
whats education going to provide if 9 out of 10 doesn’t hire
they keeping firing killing thoughts of climbing higher
start out at the bottom with no where to go
cant back up, no where to turn, stuck , im fucked
keep my mind on the money and money on my mind
but I’m lagging right behind cos the money isn’t mine
few more months and I’m fighting thoughts of eviction

I’m at my wits end I don’t wanna let go
Tell me where to find the rainbow
so I can lay my hands on that pot of gold
before I lay asleep on the streets cold

first let me talk, hear me out
listen to me before you start freaking out
you cut me off, with your assumptions
interruptions are like intermission segments
doesn’t feel right, anger fast and furious
problems mounting im curious
words use against me, situations don’t work with me
conclusions convict me before I could finish
erase the need for explanations
is this what we call communication
doors slam I need my respirator
feels like im losing this fight, I surrender

I’m at my wits end I don’t wanna let go
More problems no solutions
Cant we work this out
I admit defeat I surrender

I know how it is to wake up fucked up
No direction no aim
all the problems piled up
high up to your neck
dry drowning struggling
no one hears you calling
the end draws nearer without warning
sitting like ducks
before you realise your in the oven roasting

im at my wits end I don’t wanna let go
tell me where to go
a place where I can pour out my sorrows
before I disappear tommorow

No money all trouble
dreams high up in the air
reach my hands to grab bursting it like bubbles
problems on end solutions never come
others having fun seems like I’m always on the run
keep my mind on the money and money on my mind
but I’m lagging right behind cos the money isn’t mine
few more months and I’m fighting thoughts of eviction
I’m at my wits end I don’t wanna let go
Tell me where to find the rainbow
so I can lay my hands on that pot of gold
before I lay asleep on the streets cold

a million cuts to myself and im wondering what is wrong
quietly stabbing me the force is so strong
hide and seek feels like a wall is wedged between
i cant tell im feeling weak
in the past i was on a winning streak
now im just trying to bite off that overdone steak
behavior is weird like sticks that break my bones
yet im still trying to hold on with whats left of my soul
there's so many things you look forward to but im not the one
think you wanna be alone
2 lone rocks on a vast piece of land
baby girl, do you still take me as your man?
if i let out my hand will you grab it, when you fall before you land so things are safely where they stand
im yours but you left that behind along with bad memories
acknowledge my existence yet you look right through me
what's on your mind i really want to know,
that you're always mine and that's what i hope to find
so i can find that peace of mind.

Dear baby,

Its time to learn and start to make a change
Wait for too long, things will get out of range
To stay ahead of the game so many you have to adjust
It takes a long time please don rush
Things don happen just because you wan it fast
Truth is you won’t last if you run that fast
You’ve been through a lot
Problems keep coming at you no matter how you dodge
God is a Blacksmith with an iron wrought
Clamp between beat you up till you’re red hot
Pain is the process of molding you
That’s how life is, and how you look at it
You go through it coming out stronger than ever
Better and lasting longer than ever
Stop and strategize plan and realize
That you can run but you can’t hide
When u’re on top everyone wants to get to you
When u make mistakes everybody shuns you
Nobody remembers the achievements
They only remember the times you fuck up
The times when disaster strikes
But its never too late to try
The end result is a damn long ride
Endless winding road and never smooth sailing
If you’re wiling to take it it’s the path to right
Believe me at the end of the tunnel you’ll see the light

I’ve been wondering I’ve been waiting for you
Im pretending and that’s all I can do
The love im sending ain making it through to your heart


many show you how hard this life is
each a different way so you can catch the jizz
of how everything works but please..
don’t ever dismiss the way im doing this
I try to show you there are many choices to be made
Without ever claiming a single credit
Constantly advice, Weigh your options thoroughly
Put it all on a balance, spread evenly
No dispositions do your best, think consciously
All this will lead to large responsibility
but you lean towards the worst tendency

I’ve been crying Never letting it show
always trying to keep it under control
You’ve got it now and well and on your way to the top
but there is something that you forgot

so many choices to make
its not for my sake but for yours
yet you forsake and go ahead
though im telling you to wait because danger awaits
Things that you could have change and done
No time for regrets no time for any of that
i can be fat but I can be thi
once its done it stays within
no matter how you try saving it sinks
no matter how you flush it stinks
tell me whose shit don’t stink
things you try so hard to get it right just doesn’t

do you ever feel alone in a room of friends
Tonight that’s where I stand
What you’re saying hurts maybe it’s the truth
What you say might have proved
no need for sorry, i just wanted you to know how im feeling
I just wanted quality
im not ashamed to say im selfish for you

I’ve been wondering I’ve been waiting for you
Im pretending and that’s all I can do
The love im sending ain making it through to your heart

True life

People die people cry
People get high
Selected few brought up to lie
Inevitable This is how life goes by
rats dress like you and I
talk like you and i
sound like you and i,
but fit in just to spy
use what they know into weapons to stab you in the back
then run and hide when they see a cat
rats lie for positions up high
spread gossip and rumors that fly
associate with disrespect
rats don’t know the meaning of fair
fair only when they the ones left
but in the end rats don’t survive they die
rightful place under my feet they belong
the cat’s here don panic don’t cry

stand strong you will never go wrong
here to support we’re a team built like king kong
so listen very carefully to the words of this song
lines are borders what you need to be safe
draw yourself a box more like a safe
time to be heartless cos
emotions are a clear weakness
how you handle the situation is real finesse
scars remind you of the pain
they will never fade instead forever they remain
careful what you say and do
it might just be used against you
real talk will walk you now fight against a rock
won run don play don back down from the mocks
trust no one nobody is your friend
the lesser you expose the more you protect
protect your neck and your back
leaves the lights on cos the fights on
today might be the fucking fight
guard yourself well the fight Is on

this is true life